Kuching Day 5

This situated near SJK Chung Hua No.3. 

Best Cendol ever~

This has been such a long time I didn't touch this kind of things. 

The artwork of Mickey =) Bro Sheri and Sis Jo had their cendol and I had my ABc!~

I must introduce RobinHood. Great and Humorous. !!

Show Luo Zhi Xiang is coming to THE SPRING IN KUCHING.

Don't miss it if you are one of his fans. I feel like going. Not sure if my sis or friends want to join or not.

Nice deco~

My lunch in GASONLINE. This called Ying Yang Mee

I had always heard this mee from my friends. So I end up trying it. 

Not bad just too big in the plate. Scare me. It takes about half of the table size.

I eat for about one hour haha.

My favorite food SEAWEED~

ALSO BIG APPLE

with alien, chessy, strawberry, fruit, white choco, ice berg.

Nice car with "agoyiikamu".

Any idea. Even I learnt Japanese I still don't have any idea what it means.

K box. My sis is too bored so 

we end up this place.~

Lots of people said I have change.

Maybe! Become fatter.... -.-

Don't get shock cause I am shock too~ 

I have spending so much money on magazine. Indeed. I still spending now.. like RM300 above~!

Blueberry Cheesy =D

I would like to thanks myself for indulging myself for quite sometime.

See Michiko such an obsseser. 

Don't get tricked!!

Wake up.

Michiko muched it -.-

FOod

I bought this in Pasar Malam (night market)

Well the very first time I went to night market cause I 

never looking forward for that.

This turn out to be nice that I got taste all sorts of noodles 

also cakes and magazine.

Another cute stuff which bother me so I bought it.

Cute though it is kind of tasteless =D

Something that I would like to show my mum is

that I know to cook barley and it taste so nice. 

But not this one. Saw the white and cloudy stuff stuff in the middle and some and the side

of my pizza.

Yea you are right it is mould. 

It is wet and I still eat it. Until I shout at it and throw it into dusbin

For god sake I didn't throw it outside my window.

Something to say

爱的感觉終是甜密.....终觉得多了一个人陪.....多了一个人幇你分担烦恼.....終于不觉得孤单了

1~有些事，我們明知道是錯的，也要去堅持，因為不甘心； 有些人，我們明知道是愛的，也要去放棄，因為沒結局； 有時候，我們明知道沒路了，卻還在前行，因為習慣了。

2~以為蒙上了眼睛，就可以看不見這個世界； 以為摀住了耳朵，就可以聽不到所有的煩惱； 以為腳步停了下來，心就可以不再遠行； 以為需要的愛情，只是一個擁抱~可是你心中的真愛是在這裡嗎？

3~那些已經犯過的錯誤，有一些是因為來不及，有一些是因為刻意躲避， 更多的時候是茫然地站到了一邊。我們就這樣錯了一次又一次，卻從不曉得從中汲取教訓，做一些反省或是努力補救。

4~你不知道我在想你，是因為你不愛我，我明明知道你不想我，卻還愛你，是因為我太傻。也許有時候，逃避不是因為害怕去面對什麼，而是在等待什麼。

5~天空沒有翅膀的痕跡，但鳥兒已經飛過；心裡沒有被刀子割過，但疼痛卻那麼清晰。這些胸口裡最柔軟的地方，被愛人傷害過的傷口，遠比那些肢體所受的傷害來得犀利，而且只有時間，才能夠治癒。

6~很多人，因為寂寞而錯愛了一人，但更多的人，因為錯愛一人，而寂寞一生。我們可以彼此相愛，卻注定了無法相守。不是我不夠愛你，只是我不敢肯定，這愛~是不是最正確的。

7~如果背叛是一種勇氣，那麼接受背叛則需要一種更大的勇氣。前者只需要有足夠的勇敢就可以，又或許只是一時衝動，而後者考驗的卻是寬容的程度，絕非衝動那麼簡單，需要的唯有時間。

8~生命無法用來證明愛情，就像我們無法證明自己可以不再相信愛情。在這個城市裡，誠如勞力士是物質的奢侈品，愛情則是精神上的奢侈品。可是生命脆弱無比，根本沒辦法承受那麼多的奢侈。

9~人最大的困難是認識自己，最容易的也是認識自己。 很多時候，我們認不清自己，只因為我們把自己放在了一個錯誤的位置，給了自己一個錯覺。所以，不怕前路坎坷，只怕從一開始就走錯了方向。

10~生活在一個城市裡，或者愛一個人，又或者做某件事，時間久了，就會覺得厭倦，就會有一種想要逃離的衝動。也許不是厭倦了這個城市、愛的人、堅持的事，只是給不了自己堅持下去的勇氣。

11~多少次又多少次，回憶把生活劃成一個圈，而我們在原地轉了無數次，無法解脫。總是希望回到最初相識的地點，如果能夠再一次選擇的話，以為可以愛得更單純。

12~如果你明明知道這個故事的結局，你或者選擇說出來，或者裝作不知道，萬不要欲言又止。有時候留給別人的傷害，選擇沉默比選擇坦白要痛多了。

The Wishes

The earliest blog post ever. I can't really sleep, I don't feel like sleeping.

Life still goes on.

Well, I have pretty tough time yesterday.

Suffering things I mess up, and breathe with the bleeding heart.

Cry does help but in case it is the best way for me to express when

no one is there for you. And no more one is there for you.

Laughing at the mirror, I just feel like I am the worst actor after all.

I was totally revenge by my own self.

Thanks for all the people who step into my life.

I never feel so grateful until yesterday. I am contented.

I am a fish who live in the sea but still want for more.

I am just a normal lil fish who swims in the sea

so lost in the moment.

Why now? I don't know. Maybe now is better than then.

No matter how I will have these days to suffer.

=) This is what I get in return of hurting people.

Sorry can't help anything. Thing had said is already a yesterday.

Things I had tried to attempt as to alter, I did.

Nothing change.

First time feel like being flung out the window when you are no more wanted.

Haha. That feeling is just like a broken string helium balloon.

Lose grab from the hand of a lil kids.

I can't help to be the child, I am still immature.

Maybe that is the reason why I still crying until now.

Any suggestion to stop crying?

Doing everything like I forcing myself to see, do things with the blur vision.

Wish you all the best

Had things that you had.

Sorry for those who I had hurt.

Thanks for being so kind and warm to conquer and accept

my stubborn and silly thinking.

You guys had done a lot that things I can't see with my swollen eyes.

Never until it is written and shown.

I am blind.

I will be fine.

Can someone tell me to stop waiting?

I wait like a fool.

Suddenly lose the stimulus of smiling.

Something wrong with my muscle.

All the things stop. Now I am the one who stop.

I don't want to go further.

Asking people to live a life you want is really bad things to do.

You want someone to be happy

cause he or she is too good to be with.

I don't like to be a dragger, sound like I am acting karma.

In the end. I'm the one who feel hurt.

Dying.

Pasta Break

3rd Spaghetti Experiment

#Heavenated Pepper Corn Spaghetti #

Feeling deeply charge which can last me for whole month

I feel the bliss. I feel happy. Everything seems to flow on smoothly.

=) Today, after click off dialog with my mum. I turn into a cook.

Well, due to some reason I prepare whole things about 3 hours.

I prepare whole things using rice cooker thats why I takes so long.

I would like to introduce your guys about green big brother pepper.

It taste real good. Seriously, I have no idea why I am so fancy with pepper these days.

Saw I add on grin black pepper some more as topping. Gleeful.

Human need break, same as you~ MCD after mountain climb in Broga.

This happen during mid of April. I didn't upload any post.

As I am waiting upon the coming Mount Tahan climbing!

I am not a professional climber, I am not not a climbing fans.

I am just typical person like you. I am adventurous and nature lovers.

Maybe this is what make me stand out.

Cheesy Ribbon Pasta~

The day of yester

Despite of the usual hot day, I plan to go out with my sister.

Anyway I got to wait her finish all her work and dinner with her boss!

Sizzling in my room, I have been 1/4 cooked.

Finally the clock ticked, here I come to IOI mall.

Well, first come first. Kill my two weeks grocer first.

Come by, the following geck me to hell massage.

I always dream of being massage but it is not as enjoying as I though.

After series of laughing and streaming of my tear.

I said " why so long!! Ah finally it stops."

My sis in opposite

"Eh some more?"

Finish this dumber exercise we go and play pool.

I know my first time. The best post I can be.

Not professional. But I will try hard next time.

+++++

The day end with the movie THE CRAZIES.

Library Phobia

I like new trimester because during that period, no inhuman human will exist in library. I phobia with my school library after the midterm break. I feel headache whenever I went to library. This is because some irresponsible people though we are invisible. I try my best to be patient but there are just so you know. Below are lists of people I meet:

1) Listen to Ipod or MP3, too loud until feel like he or she is sharing the music with all of them. And it is all techno music and alien language song. Gah!

2) Keep on shaking their leg. Make me real headache. I need to sit 45 degree?

3) Talk talk talk. Ish... so loud and so clear and purposely sit beside me.

4) Scolding the authority in the public by pat heavily on the counter, he or she is not giving respect to the rest of human. Want to be a star to catch attention? Go take part in American Idol. Not here.

5) Someone is Shhhiiiiing people not to talk. And I heard they said "Do you know where is here? Never respect people" then when he or she turns back. He/She talks like hell. I feel like throwing my book on xxx.

6) Make people enjoy their rington. Not a nice rington but still want to show off. They got mobile phone. Seems like cue-ing people "COME AND TAKE MY PHONE"

7) Act thick in using laptop or notebook. When he page opening the welcome tone so loud till... uhhh.. want to examine my IQ about which window they are using. -.-

8) No place to sit and sometime no place to use the public monitor. Well, I pass by saw someone is enjoying FACEBOOK, FACEBOOK GAME, CYBERTRACKER, DOTA, COUNTER STRIKE, etc thanks god. I am in urgent and you guys. =) Make me crazy.

9) The library's authority spreading his or her mad face. Like everyone is suffering PMS. Perhaps. Some of them talk so harsh like I owe him or her thousand. -.- (no wonder someone is scolding them)

10) Laying legs on the opposite chair and sometime they fold their leg and enjoying there. Some more I saw people fall asleep and snore in tune. 0.O I can only shake my head. If not I think I will use book to smash his head or pour him bucket of cold water. [reason why I cannot find a place to sit]

People enjoying chit chatting and rumoring inside library. So call discussion but just enjoying the air corn and some... sleep. THAT IS WHY I HATE LIBRARY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!

Sorry if i am using harsh word. Or you are one of them? Being stab deeply ? Or maybe some of them laughing at me? Why don't you join them? well, I am not rubbish. I don't want to be one too~

We, not being together

有些人不能在一起，可他们的心在一起；
有些人表面上在一起，心却无法在一起；
有些人从没想过要在一起，却自然而然地在一起；
有些人千辛万苦地终于在一起了，
却发现他们并不适合在 一起。

就算最后，我们没有在一起， 至少爱，还是会在一起。
爱要的只是 Timing，不需要多聪明
爱在一起，就在一起！

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Friends

Recently something keep bothering me. Actually not. I'm just keep searching for the balance of my relationship. Tuning from friends to lover and back to friends. Perhaps that is the answer I really want. I try my best to listen to my heart. My soul. Yes I having dilemma cause I hear some nuisance signal too. Devil and angel everywhere. Come and go and drop you a message of yes and no. I'm relieve that I have finally make a decision which I usually don't.

I find time thinking, a bad excuse of my life. I skip my studies and exercise. I just sleep and think, think and sleep. Kind of procrastinator. Sometime I feel like escape but the fact is I am running away from myself. Well, a friend doesn't sounds too wrong or too bad. We might feel strange at first but we can manage well when time goes on. If you believe in friendship. Friends sounds simple and innocent. It keeps you young and happy all the time. It appears to be when you really need it.

I am just too individualistic. Ever heard this term? I never care so much until now. I scare of loneliness also crowd. So you may be asking me, so which one are you really in. Depends. But most of all my possibilities still topple on the crowd side. I like to be myself and only myself. Feel so free that I can feel the will. Well, I grow up and I grow old. It's my wisdom not me. I need to be more responsibility on myself. I opt to. I am no more a kids who keep peeping out the window pane and pondering over the appearance of mum and dad. No more a teenagers who cry for misunderstanding. No more a stubborn girl who knocks her head again and again the wall which never breaks. I bleed, I cry, I learn and I grow. Breathe through the world and breathe through the words. It is tough and make you break. But be strong.

Stepping on the a-lined rocks counting one two three is boring and tedium. What about a friend. Yes maybe i need to make more friends. Life just too bored without friends. Where goes my spirit? Whack! @.@