all kinds of people

Thanks to Yuris, my in lab partner and also unknown Malay guy. Their behavior and words whack me up. Also brother Jason shared with me something about scholarship. Yea I am in debt with scholarship. Why, cause I failed for the last semester. I low CGPA which seems no return for scholarship. I must admit I have been too playful and adventurous spirit in exploring. Not properly doing my task and pick up my responsibility. I keep on playing trail version of life and wish the mid term exam never comes.

Well, today, I disappoint my IS friend,Yuris, this is incident I can never forget. The Malay friend I met said "You surely got the result huh? You are so smart in the class" [perhaps I feel damn ashamed and feel like dying in second and rest in peace in the cemetery and hope no one knows about me and let me reborn. This is how I feel and finally I got this kind of feel. I have been paying too much concentration in my entertainment, maintaining my relationship, school activities and unknown interruption. NOW WHAT!! Need to clock back myself. I really fear of losing time but it just fling of my hand just like that.~ There are things getting slowed down, like cleaning up my room, taking care of my hygiene, studying in the library, doing revision and etc.

There are always too much to compare with those temporarily freaking hardworking "genius".  I really want to be good but I never do what I said. And that is the result of me and who am I. Don't feel pity on me. I am to feel it myself. A lots of things I know and I forget and a lots of things I try to forget and not forget also there are things I forget, forgets me. WHATEVER!!!

Besides, just now I saw there are genius who walk out of the hall after 15 minutes after the exam starts, there are people who bribing for more time to finish their paper, there are people who stalk around, people who cheat, people who memorize the cord like meditation or praying in the temple. All sorts of people. Perhaps the way I study is not correct at all. And all the people here are here to teach me. I should appreciate them. People like Fouladi, Sharma, Jay, even those I hate, those I love, those I admired, those I jealous and etc. Yes! Thanks!