I am not sure when I got so serious about Wushu. Well, partially is the support from my seniors, brothers and my master. Some words play a big roll in changing me mentally which I think I move forward to something good and bright rather than others. Thanks for them. I feel the burning of my muscle both physically and mentally which make me feel great and awesome. Wushu is almost everything to me that makes me like it. Wushu involve shaolin, taichi, ballet, breakdance,gymnast, circus movement [I don't mean that we are clown, but we are doing movement which break through our own limits.]
I might be a little bit this or that in terms of skill I have nothing but start with zero. Movement and expression. The most important to perform in a group is guess still the synchronization and the mutual bond in between the players. I like that kind of feel but I know it takes times. As we are all strangers.
You never try you will never know. I must say that this few days I start to feel so much about Wushu. It is something like homework or maybe already become part of my life. By watching my senior doing all kinds of amazing movement and stunt or stance. I am just so impress and enjoy watching. I know all those movement takes time and years to create such a phenomenal.
When something is too much, it is too much. Day before I have my 4 hours self training reel. I try my best to get seniors who are free and those seniors are really helpful and answered my request willingly. I reach there earlier on and start to train. Something mock on me is that when I feel I have reach the average. I start to roll downhill. I was totally mad and I even stunt with certain movement and laugh at myself. What happens. My sweat is almost mix homogeneously with my tears. And that feeling is NO WAY GOOD. When somebody is growing from step 1 to 7 and you just stands at level 5 and 5 and 5. Take a rest, everything will be ok. Probably I must admit humans have certain limits we are not cyborg. Thanks for seniors caring I will work hard for the next few hours once I open my eyes.
The trust someone gives to you is your disciple and responsibility. Have a good talk with those who is more experience than you is needed. I have totally no experience in teaching my junior and I don't feel I have the ability to teach. In fact, I swear I don't like to teach. Somehow, I want myself to be strong and perfect in some level before I can teach someone confidently. When someone giving you that trust to make somebody better. Not to disappoint I have to. No doubt, my seniors play most of the important role to make us better. The trust that my master gave me and the feedback is totally positive which makes him a mirror to my motivation and I will double it.
AIM THEN JUMP HIGHER ~ WORKING WITH MY PRACTICE NOW!
